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Monday, May 22, 2006
My last post in Singapore before i fly off
Hello!... Hmm...i'm just about to leave my house for the airport now..will be in Paris from tomorrow, all the way till the 5th of june..i reach singapore back on the 6th of June..=).. I've brought quite a few pictures of Sydney!..haha...got some photos in my wallet, as well as my laptop which i'm bringing there..it's gonna be my nightly bed-time story book.. Well, I've brought "The Book" there, so that i can decorate it, and complete it by the time i come back...so i guess i'll be missing Sydney, and thinking of her everyday too!... Well, gotta go...keep me in prayers ya?... p.s: if anything ever happens to me overseas...my friends, do let sydney see this blog, and tell her there was once a guy who loved her so much, he would gladly give his life in exchange for hers, if it was needed..and don't forget the book too...should anything happen, please make sure sydney gets the book..it'll be the last piece of artwork i ever did in my life...=) Thanks! Cheers, damselfly
++ quoth dragonfly at 2:16 AM Thursday, May 18, 2006
haiz...
.jpg) .jpg) Haiz.. I had a slight mishap just now...I was taking the last photo, which would finish up all the photos i needed for the book for Sydney. I was squatting by the roadside, to take a photo of some artiste's house, which she likes to go..haha...just as i clicked the shutter, and the image was captured, i felt this thing hit my camera from the front. Next thing i knew, the viewfinder glass had smashed, and my eye was in such pain i thought it was on fire. The more i blinked, the more pain i recieved...afterwards i found out that some of the glass bits had gotten into my eye, causing the pain. The cause of all this pain?...a stone which had been dislodged from the road when a car sped by...it was probably flung by the car's tire..hence the great force. My camera lens suffered too, as it was the frontline of the impact. My lens filter was completely smashed up, and the force had been so great that the mount for my lens had broken too. Now here i am at home, with an eye that stings in pain everytime i blink, a small scar down my face, and a camera lens and filter that is wrecked(refer to pics above)...But i got my picture, and that is all that matters...I hope Sydney likes the book...she knows about my mishap, but not why i was taking photos at such an hour..and i plan to never tell her..but i hope "The Book" really makes her smile, and touches her heart...that's all i hope to achieve...=) Cheers, damselfly
++ quoth dragonfly at 7:44 AM Monday, May 15, 2006
Lundi, May 15th, 2006
Hello!... Hmm...Today was a fruitful day!.. Well, Sydney's going to Beijing for a 6-week Student-Exchange programme initiated by her school, NTU. It's her first time going away for so long without her family if i don't remember wrongly. I'm making a book for her. I don't know if she'll be homesick anytime during those 6 weeks, but i came up with a list of places she frequents, the foods she loves to eat, and the things that are on her favourites' list. This book will contain photographs of the places she frequents, the food she loves, and all her favourites, as well as things that she's so familiar with, that they're almost part of her. The purpose of this book: So that if during anytime in the 6 weeks she's in beijing, she feels homesick, or misses home and friends, she can have some pictures to look at..=) There are: 25 places, 9 kinds of food, 1 car she likes, 1 car she drives, 1 instrument she plays, 1 house she stays in, 1 house she goes to for dinner, 1 family, 1 group of cousins, 1 favourite "ah ma" from church, 1 child she hangs out with. So that makes it 44 pictures, at least!..haha...i've managed to cover 20 places already, spanning from chinatown, to tampiness, to bukit timah, to toa payoh, to holland village, etc etc...=), and these few days i've been eating the food she likes to eat, for the sole purpose of being able to capture some photos of them for the book!..Haha...it's almost like an amazing race of my own!..=) Well, that sums up my day!...Tomorrow will be spent taking more photos, for the booK! =)...Hope the weather holds up!..=) Cheers! damselfly
++ quoth dragonfly at 7:35 AM Sunday, May 14, 2006
Tears Shed on a Sunday...
I feel so sad today!.. Sigh, Sigh, Sigh...sometimes i feel so melancholic when i see Sydney in church, and it's like i know it's sooo impossible between us. Somehow in the midst of the church-going crowd, i will never have the courage to go ahead and speak to her...i'm such a loser.... Oh well, anyway, today was a pretty sad day for me. I spent most of the time mulling over this issue. It seems that she's irritated by me?..cos when i sms her, she seldom replies nowadays... I'm such a dunce!...I can never read the minds of girls, much less Sydney's..I'm sure i've so often pissed her off. Maybe times like now?...i think i've tried asking her out too often this week..She told me to try asking her next week, like waiting till the last minute before asking her, but i think firstly, that would seem so insincere of me, and secondly, i have this feeling that she would never be free then...sigh... I'll be flying off overseas again soon...I always miss her when i'm abroad...but who knows?...does she know?...I doubt so. And maybe it's better that way...Do i really have such a lousy character?...why is it that no matter what i do, she will never feel touched?...sigh...i'm a loser at this game of love... "Sydney", i really like you a lot....i just wish you could like me back a little too... damselfly...
++ quoth dragonfly at 7:25 AM Saturday, May 13, 2006
Giving up the Forest for a Tree?
Is it stupid to give up the entire forest for a tree?...There's a certain girl i have liked for almost 5 years i shall give her the pseudonym "Sydney"..but sadly my feelings for her are not returned..=(..if anyone's reading this, would you give up the entire forest for a single tree?...right now, it's almost zero chances of her ever liking me... I really love Sydney a lot...even though her feelings for me never extend any more then mere friends, or close friends, but i just love her a lot...She knows i like her, but she never felt / feels anything for me..=( Friends have told me to cast my net wider, and to not just focus on her...I tried that, i tried liking other girls, but when a friend of mine asked me "so you've gotten over Sydney?"..my answer has always been "No."..and i don't think it's fair to the other girls too right?...hence, i feel that i shouldn't try to like other girls. I shall just keep my heart solely for Sydney. If she never likes me, i will keep maintain singlehood till the day i leave this place..that day, i will shed my last tear for Sydney, and with my last breath, i will tell her this, "for the past 60 or 70 years, my heart has never been mine alone...it's always been yours...Even though you never loved me as much as i loved you, I would like you to know that you have been the sole greatest love of my life...May God Bless you always..."... =) Damselfly
++ quoth dragonfly at 8:25 AM
My first Post
Hello... This is a private blog of mine...a blog in which i shall pen my most private thoughts, behind a veil, sharing about the girl i like, and have liked for many years..as well as what i am currently making for her..=)..Maybe if many years down the road, she ever reciprocates my feelings for her, then i'll show her this blog..a testimonial to how long i have loved her. =) Damselfly
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