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Thursday, June 15, 2006
i miss you...
sigh... I miss sydney..i cycled from east coast park macdonald's to Changi Airport today..when i was at east coast park macdonald's, i remembered the night i spent there, and i felt that it seemed so long ago!...then i realised it was only yesterday morning at 5+am that i was waiting for a cab to take me to the airport...Gosh...it's only been a day.. I cycled to the airport too, and went to terminal 1's departure area where the taxis stop, and i recalled being there yesterday morning, at bay 3, where Cathay Pacific is, and helping her get her stuff off the cab...i miss you...with you overseas, you seem so far away!..i just feel so lost...i wish you were here... with love from singapore.. damselfly
++ quoth dragonfly at 7:01 AM Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Bon Voyage Sydney...i will miss you tremendously
haiz... I just went to send sydney off at the airport...i felt so sad...the same terminal which i sent my 3 fav brothers off is the same one i went to send the girl to whom my heart aches for off... our church friends went too, along with her junior college classmates, and two local mediacorp artistes, shimei and alan..all in all, she had a pretty grand farewell breakfast with us...and i look forward to seeing her again... I spent last night at east coast park...watched the world cup there, becos firstly i had some things in my mind i wanted to clear by the sea, as well as the fact that i was afraid that i would be late...hence i didn't sleep...that's the best solution!.. well, over to the airport just now, friends of mine will know that i always get very sentimental..usually i would always stay and look at the person till he or she disappears from sight, before going up to the viewing gallery to await the take-off of the airliner..well, just now i couldn't because her family and friends don't seem to have that habit, and were pretty eager to leave...well, i was holding back my tears too...and thru-out it all, i was forcing a smile..sigh...i'm gonna miss you sydney... gave her "The Book" today...so glad that you brought it with you to Beijing...i smile when i think of how the expression on your face will be when you unwrap it, and see the contents of the book for the first time in your life...i hope it will do as i what i wrote on the front page, "...bring a smile to the face the girl i love so much"...i miss you sydney...and i love you so...i will keep you in my prayers till you return..i haven't been praying regularly for a long time..but becos of you, i will...take care my "hao xiong di"...you always hate it when i say "take care leh"...but i will still say it...Bon Voyage, love of my heart...a piece of my heart is always with you, wherever you go.. Take care...=) damselfly
++ quoth dragonfly at 5:51 PM Friday, June 02, 2006
love is patient, love is kind
30th May 2006 hmm...i did a bit more work on "The Book" today..on the back cover, there is a piece of black paper stuck to it, which lists the reasons why 23 is such a special number..=)..haha..and behind the paper, i.e the side that is stuck to the cover, i have written a personal note to her..the back page will be glued only on the perimeter, should the day ever come that sydney accepts my love for her, i shall ask her for this book again, and with a knife, i shall cut out this piece of black paper from the cover, flip it over, and she will see for the first time, this hidden message of love for her..=) i also wrote down the address of this blog there..she would then be aware of the existence of this blog, and she can read this then..=) i miss sydney so much...i dreamt of her last night, together with the 3 favourite kids of mine, 3 brothers of mine who are in Niger now..it was the best dream i had, not because of what happened in the dream, because i forgot liao...but because of who was in it...Sydney, i really love you a lot...if only you could love me back just a little..sighz... I miss you sydney....i miss you and i love you... Cheers damselfly
++ quoth dragonfly at 3:22 AM
love is patient, love is kind
25th May 2006 hmm...i'm listening to the song xu_yuan by Gigi Leung..I love this song, but it makes me miss Sydney a lot...she sang this before, and i loved it...yet i feel sad, cos somehow i feel that Sydney misses me even less then friends whom i have not shared so much of my life with, and whom i have not given so much of my life to.. worked a little on the book for sydney yesterday night before i slept..on the second page of the book, i left a personal note, stating that the purpose of the book was simply to bring a smile to the face of the girl i so love, specifying that it was her, sydney. actually i seldom tell her that i "love" her...even though i really do so..somehow i get a little nervous, that since it's a mono-directional path of affection, she might not feel very comfortable with it...but i think i really have to tell her this in the book..at least it states clearly again why i do so much for her, and that the driving force in me doing that arises not merely out of platonic friendship, but a close friendship that encompasses the hope of the bud of romance blossoming into something more.. I really want to share my life with sydney...not for 5 years, not for 10 years, but for eternity, for as long as i shall live.. sometimes i don't know what approach i should adopt towards expressing my affection for sydney...i've tended to err towards trying to be caring, but then again i guess sometimes she thinks it's a tad excessive...i don't know if i should be sweet to her...i think i can be quite sweet to her...just that i always shy away from that..sydney doesn't give me the impression that she's someone who appreciates sweetness...but then again, maybe i'm wrong...for friends whom have said that i'm sweet to her, hmm...actually i think u haven't really seen what i'm like if i'm really sweet to someone..what you see, is perhaps 20% of what i have for her...sometimes i make little presents for her, but most of the time i never give them to her, because i don't know what to answer her if she asks what it's for...kinda glad that she's going to hongkong too, cos i finally have a reason to give her something..=)..but real sad cos i'm gonna miss her so much... she's quite unappreciative sometimes i feel...i mean, when i sms her to tell her i brought the monkey she gave me for christmas with me to Paris...her response was "...Huh.. Bring monkey for what..."haiz...does she really not know?...i brought it because i know i will miss her when i'm in Paris, and at least i have it to accompany me to sleep every night..i'm a pretty sentimental person, she should know that... oh well, i guess that's about all i'll blog for today on this blog..I just came up with a list of songs that i like to listen to, because somehow these songs fill my mind with memories of her..haha..shall sign off here for the day.. Cheers damselfly
++ quoth dragonfly at 3:20 AM |