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Friday, June 02, 2006
love is patient, love is kind
25th May 2006 hmm...i'm listening to the song xu_yuan by Gigi Leung..I love this song, but it makes me miss Sydney a lot...she sang this before, and i loved it...yet i feel sad, cos somehow i feel that Sydney misses me even less then friends whom i have not shared so much of my life with, and whom i have not given so much of my life to.. worked a little on the book for sydney yesterday night before i slept..on the second page of the book, i left a personal note, stating that the purpose of the book was simply to bring a smile to the face of the girl i so love, specifying that it was her, sydney. actually i seldom tell her that i "love" her...even though i really do so..somehow i get a little nervous, that since it's a mono-directional path of affection, she might not feel very comfortable with it...but i think i really have to tell her this in the book..at least it states clearly again why i do so much for her, and that the driving force in me doing that arises not merely out of platonic friendship, but a close friendship that encompasses the hope of the bud of romance blossoming into something more.. I really want to share my life with sydney...not for 5 years, not for 10 years, but for eternity, for as long as i shall live.. sometimes i don't know what approach i should adopt towards expressing my affection for sydney...i've tended to err towards trying to be caring, but then again i guess sometimes she thinks it's a tad excessive...i don't know if i should be sweet to her...i think i can be quite sweet to her...just that i always shy away from that..sydney doesn't give me the impression that she's someone who appreciates sweetness...but then again, maybe i'm wrong...for friends whom have said that i'm sweet to her, hmm...actually i think u haven't really seen what i'm like if i'm really sweet to someone..what you see, is perhaps 20% of what i have for her...sometimes i make little presents for her, but most of the time i never give them to her, because i don't know what to answer her if she asks what it's for...kinda glad that she's going to hongkong too, cos i finally have a reason to give her something..=)..but real sad cos i'm gonna miss her so much... she's quite unappreciative sometimes i feel...i mean, when i sms her to tell her i brought the monkey she gave me for christmas with me to Paris...her response was "...Huh.. Bring monkey for what..."haiz...does she really not know?...i brought it because i know i will miss her when i'm in Paris, and at least i have it to accompany me to sleep every night..i'm a pretty sentimental person, she should know that... oh well, i guess that's about all i'll blog for today on this blog..I just came up with a list of songs that i like to listen to, because somehow these songs fill my mind with memories of her..haha..shall sign off here for the day.. Cheers damselfly
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