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Sunday, May 14, 2006
Tears Shed on a Sunday...
I feel so sad today!.. Sigh, Sigh, Sigh...sometimes i feel so melancholic when i see Sydney in church, and it's like i know it's sooo impossible between us. Somehow in the midst of the church-going crowd, i will never have the courage to go ahead and speak to her...i'm such a loser.... Oh well, anyway, today was a pretty sad day for me. I spent most of the time mulling over this issue. It seems that she's irritated by me?..cos when i sms her, she seldom replies nowadays... I'm such a dunce!...I can never read the minds of girls, much less Sydney's..I'm sure i've so often pissed her off. Maybe times like now?...i think i've tried asking her out too often this week..She told me to try asking her next week, like waiting till the last minute before asking her, but i think firstly, that would seem so insincere of me, and secondly, i have this feeling that she would never be free then...sigh... I'll be flying off overseas again soon...I always miss her when i'm abroad...but who knows?...does she know?...I doubt so. And maybe it's better that way...Do i really have such a lousy character?...why is it that no matter what i do, she will never feel touched?...sigh...i'm a loser at this game of love... "Sydney", i really like you a lot....i just wish you could like me back a little too... damselfly...
++ quoth dragonfly at 7:25 AM |