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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
thoughts again?
Hmm..i just finished tuition..well, before tuition, i was just thinking about somethings..honestly, i've never really felt how it's like to be loved, besides a little when i was with ai en..somehow those little details are stuck in my mind...the times when i chatted with her on the phone till we fell asleep..i really miss those days..i feel quite like a loser sometimes..and i feel it's something that's within me, that makes people just not like me..i guess i scare girls away sometimes?.. was watching channel 8 yesterday at 9pm..the way "tian jun" handles his liking for the girl "zhenya" is just so cool..as in he's so cool-headed about it...not like me..i know i shd try to be like that, more "xiao1 sha3"...but it's somehow so not my pattern..and if you're saying to yourself that i should change, i know!..but....it's tough..hmm..haha..maybe you're right..i really must..well, i shall try..but then again, i will keep worrying.."what if sydney falls for someone else, and who likes her back?...what if she already has?"..sigh..i'm such a worrier.. hmm..i dunno if this is good or bad, but i know that if i get attached, i will definitely give my all into the relationship, and i will give my best for the girl, and in future, my family & my kids..i think i'm too old fashioned..maybe dinosaurs like me are just suppossed to be extinct...haha...hmm..sydney, you're the only girl i have ever liked so much, and i really feel so comfortable when i'm with u..but i doubt you feel the exact same way as me..sigh..what am i supposed to do?..are bad-guys really that much more attractive?..should i be a "bad-guy"?...God teach me manz... wouldn't you love me back a little? damselfly
++ quoth dragonfly at 6:34 AM |